MY year.

wednesday is my birthday.  last year on this special day, when i turned 19, i hit the -50 pound weight loss mark.  it was the best birthday present i could give to myself, i thought on that perfect morning.  i had been hovering around that weight mark for about a week.  i kept thinking "man, hitting the 50 pound weight loss mark would be the best birthday present ever."  and i did.  on that tuesday morning of november 16, at around 10, i stepped on that scale and it read 162.2 [which if you can recall from my previous blog posts, is exactly 50 pounds from where i started].  i cannot begin to tell you the amount of emotions that i become filled with.


it's been a year.  a year since i became the new ali.  a year since i've kept off 50+ pounds.  can i tell you how happy i am?  i'm a completely different person.  all because i decided that the life i was living wasn't the life i was happy with.  


reflecting back on all of the things that have made this year MY year, i am amazed.  i am amazed at by changing one thing in your life [in this case it was my eating addiction], your attitude and perspective on everything can flip 180 degrees.  i am confident.  i believe i am beautiful.  i am a size 10.  i am happy.  i am the weirdest, coolest, quirkiest girl i know, and i am comfortable with myself. 


i am so overcome with gratitude on this day.  i was talking to my best friend on the phone a few nights ago and the topic of gratitude came up.  it's actually something we talk about quite often.  we were just discussing how fortunate we are to have the lives we do.  i sometimes wonder how i got so lucky to be this blessed.


but a whole year of keeping off the weight!?  i can do anything.  I'M SUPERWOMAN.  and i know it.  i'm still not to where i want to be weight wise, but i know i can do it.  if i just put my mind to it, i can do it.  i know i can.