my first pair of designer jeans. i work at Nordstrom, as most of you know, and was shopping on my dinner break. i found some shirts to try on, and since i was wearing a dress i needed some jeans to try them on with. i tried on a pair of Joe's Jeans and fell in love with them. thus, i, ali mahterian, bought my first pair of designer jeans. i love my life.
my first time fitting into my moms wedding ring. my mom has a BEAUTIFUL wedding ring that she got when she got married. since then, she has upgraded to bigger and better things [as my dad says, "bitch got an upgrade"] her first wedding band was a simple gold band with tiny diamonds, and i had been waiting for the day when i actually fit in her beautiful ring. ladies and gents, the day has come. my moms first wedding ring finally fits. and i wear it every day.
my first pair of size 10 shorts. when i got home from school for the summer, i had a little spring cleaning to do. my size 14 shorts were obviously too big, so i went to get a few pair of shorts to wear during the summer. my friend traci and i went to American Eagle and i picked out some shorts to try on. i got some size 12s and then thought, why not try on a size 10? what have i got to lose? welllll let's just say i couldn't believe my eyes when those size 10 shorts slipped on my waist with no hassle! and get this -- i didn't even have a muffin top.
my first time looking in the mirror and not believing it was really me who i was staring at. i have always had self acceptance issues; i've never really given myself the credit i deserve. the other night, as i was getting ready for work, i was looking in the mirror and thought "who the heck is this girl?" it's taken me a while to actually take to heart that this is me -- the new and improved ali. i still think of myself as overweight. whenever i go into a store to try on something, i immediately go to the large and extra large clothing section, and then take a medium just to see how much farther i have to go on my weight loss journey. i'm still astounded when the medium actually fits me. accepting my new lifestyle and body is harder than you would think.
my first time turning down a cupcake. at my second job, Buena Vista Hospice, there was a baby shower for one of the doctors who works there. there were about 50 cupcakes left over, so naturally they were in the lunch room. on my lunch break, i sat in front of these 50 beautiful looking cupcakes while eating my GF/DF vegetarian burrito. and i didn't miss the taste of that cupcake one single bit.
here's to the past and never going back. and the future -- which will be filled with even more success and happiness than i've experienced to this date.
